*Soccer*

Damn. Thats neither an angry damn or a sorrowful damn, but instead, a thoughtful one. There isn't anything else to do with the team. We need experince and the only way to get that is to play games, which we lose to the lack of experince on the team. They play absolutely amazing when they get pumped up for the game. It is simply that they don't do that for themselves. They don't start thinking about the game the night before, or put music on while they're in the shower to pump themselves up. Nor do they go through the day thinking about the plays, the moves, the saves that they know they will make. They don't believe in themselves.

It is very distressing to be the person that is "in charge" of pumping everyone up. I'm not offically in charge, though everyone knows that it is my specific duty. I don't know what else to do. If they don't believe in themselves, there is nothing I can do. *Sighs*

Tomorrow, I am going to sit down and write a note to every girl on the team. I'm going to tell them how wonderful and amazing they are, and what a good job they've been doing. I will, and am, be sincere about those things. Each girl needs to work on something, but each is excellent at something. Emphasize the excellent. *Sighs again*

Concede
Sister Hazel

Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Oh no no no-la la la la la
You....Oh no

Now hear--I promise to listen
Why won't you go for that
Now hear--I promise to hold you
Why won't you go for that

If I had wings and I could fly
Well I'd still walk with you
If I had a safe place to lie
I'd want to lay with you

Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Oh no no no-la la la la la
You....Oh no

So now you shut off and you shut down
Won't let nobody in
And when you shut off and you shut down
Won't play that fool again

I've seen your inside--you stay inside
And I won't go for that
I've seen your quarters....
Seen your crooked sacred pictures on the wall

Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Oh no no no-la la la la la
You....Oh no

I'll be your jester--be your fool
Compromising fool
I'll be your jester--be your fool...

Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Oh no no no-la la la la la
You....Oh no

*EEP*

In the words of Monty Python......

I'M NOT DEAD YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FEEL HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*WHACK*

More later *winks*

Kissing Is FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Deep sigh* It has been a wonderful weekend. My soccer team got third in the tournament, my two of my best friends from Austin got to hang out with my friends from Joshua, Celeen and I got the low score at the bowling alley *long distance high five*, I got to eat pie, and I now, as of today, have a girlfriend.

Megan is so beautiful........ heart and soul and body. You know you're dating a good person when they are beautiful on more than one plane of their existance. Should that be "plain"? I'm not quite sure *shrugs*.

I don't know how Analise and I were together without the physical. After spending the last few hours with Megan I can't imagine living without it. It is so amazing to hold someone in your arms and know that they want to be right there in that moment with you, doing exactly what they're doing. To want and have want fufilled. It is wonderous what the lack of distance does for relationships.

It was so good to be kissed and to kiss back, to hold her hands and not to have to think about the world. It's been so long since I've held someone, since I've really kissed someone passionately. It was breathtaking. At one point I picked her up, sat her in my lap and we kissed, my hands running through her hair. It was like I was in a dream that I never thought could happen, that I thought would never become the least bit tangible. The only thing in the world that I could have asked for was more time to look into her eyes and hold her. God, it was wonderful.

I am happy tonight.

Good bless.

Send It Up
Vertical Horizon

Oh you make me lay down
Oh you make me forget I am here
Oh you're making me safe now
Oh you make the faces disappear

I'm all right by the way
Everyone saves the day
Sometimes I feel it

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up

Oh I feel so close now
Oh you're taking me back from where I've been
Oh I'm not alone now
Oh you rest me up and rush me in

I'm all right by the way
Everyone saves the day
Sometimes I feel it

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up
Send it up to me

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up

I'm all right by the way
Everyone saves the day
Sometimes I feel it

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up
Send it up to me

Send it up
Send it up now
Send it up
Send it up to me

*Buenos Dias*

Yes, I am still alive. I'm sorry it's been so long, I've been grounded for quite a long time. Whatever you do kids, never EVER call your father an asshole at the top of your lungs as you're walking out the door to the car. Trust me, it's not a good thing.

Anyways, life is going ok, though of course there have been some slight bumps in the road of life. My best friend is in love with me, though I am not with her, one of the main reasons being is the 800 miles that seperate us. The other reason is named Megan. Megan is a gorgeous blonde haired, blue eyed, beautifuly wonderful girl that goes to my church. I've liked her for quite a while but she was dating a boy and I thought she was straight. I've found out since then that this is not true *winks*. I've seen her three times in the last two weeks but I'm taken, for sure, for a while. *Sings*

Lol, I can't sing very well at the moment, I've lost my voice at a soccer tournment. It ran away *cries*. Soccer is going pretty well this year, there have been 64 shots on goal and only two have gone in the net. Being the goalie, I am quite proud of that. We do seem to have a problem with getting players injured. Only last week we had one girl have a concussion and one girl break her leg. At the same time I was kicked in the head by one of the other teams players. Besides those two players we have two with pulled groins, two with shin splints, one that hurt her ankle in practice, and I busted my knee cap pretty well, we believe that its bruised to the bone. Ouch... We've got two more games today, we had three half games yesterday, and possibly one game on Saturday. It truly is wearing me out, I barely have a voice left.

School is going fine right now though I don't really understand anything in my math class. I'm going to have to get help on it from someone or figure it out myself. Not a fun prospect.

I don't seem to have anything fun to write about today, I guess it will take me a couple days to get used to writing again.

Analise and Celeen are coming from Austin to spend the night at my house on Saturday!!!!!!!!! This makes me very, very happy. The only thing is that I'm worried about my house. My dad does this thing where he starts a project and doesn't finish it. As a result we have no door frames, one hole where a door should be, none of our wood/tile floors are done, the furniture isn't arranged correctly and half the lights in the house, including mine, have ceased to work. It is very frusterating. Besides that my family isn't neat, to any extent. I try to be and at times it seems I'm the only one to make an effort. Oh well, they'll get over it and I will to.....

I've got to go get directions to my house for some of my friends. Love you much. Good bless.