You and I

Friday night, as I was falling asleep, I began to think about what an amazing person you are. About how you should be honored and loved and taken care of. How someone should be there to hold you and kiss you and make you feel amazing. And then I realized that Chris is there and that I know he is doing and being all of the things that you truly deserve. And I think it's enough for me to know that you're being honored and treated with love.

What we had is gone and I've realized that now. Whatever that was there romantically, platonically is gone. All there is now to do is to walk away or rebuild, change. To quote Colin Haye, I just don't know that I'll ever get over you. What I said before is true; you are an amazing person and, in the typical Becca way, I love you passionately. While it might lessen in time, I think that I will always love you, regardless of who I'm with, regardless of who I fall in love with, regardless of who I marry. Even though I may soon feel the touch of love, I just don't think I'll ever get over you. So read this and then let it sink to the back of your mind, because I've realized there is nothing I can do, and, honestly, I don't want to do anything. You're happy with Chris and you're more than loved with him. And I honor that.

Finally, I've been listening to this song a lot lately. I don't know that I ever sent you the lyrics, but I discovered it last fall; Genya burned me the cd as a random present. It's a great song and a great cd if you're ever interested.

You and I Both
Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words
that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages four words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.


I'm leaving tomorrow, I'll be back Friday. Call me if you ever feel the need.

Feel Free and Good Bless.

Becca