Friends
*disclamer- I wrote the majority of these at different times so some of them are with new info and some are without. This is whats been taking me so long to do*

*Grins* I'm stealing a page out of Celeen's book, that she stole out of Chris' book, though I don't know who Chris is personally. I'm writing about people in my life that have effected me in some way or another or people that I just know and like. I guess those two things are kind of synonymous but whatever.

People In Joshua
These are my basic group of friends, though I do talk to many other people. My lunch buddies are:

Josh- Josh was my gay friend last year until his parents found out he was gay and he went through some good ole' Christian changes that forced him to be what I believe is something that he's not. Oh well, not for me to decide who he dates. He is generally a good guy but he can be very overpowering on the intelligence front. We often come to blows on technicalities and we give each other crap about everything, and I do mean everything. We're pretty good friends.

Melissa- Melissa, along with Donovan who you will "meet" later, is probably has the most pure heart and mind that I have ever met. It works for and against her in a lot of ways. Because of her parents she has been amazingly sheltered her entire life. She didn't stop attending a non-Christian private school until her freshman year and thats when she met me. I've been slowly corrupting her since. She is kind, thoughtful, an amazing cook and probably one of the best friends I have. Her parents drive me nuts though, they won't let her go to prom or stay the night at other people's houses or anything that could slightly be fun. I think she feels left out a lot. She is a devout Christian and is the president of the school's bible study group and though she and I disagree on almost everything in religion, she still loves me enough to pray for me to be saved and for my arms to become better. I respect her and love her an amazing amount.

Andrew- Oh god, Andrew is one of the funniest people I know. He has an amazing gift with words and is able to manipulate them into hilarious puns that, more often than not, I'm the only one who gets the joke. That makes me love him even more. He, like most of the guys at my lunch table, has a lot of girl trouble and a lot of times he comes to me for advice which I find very funny and touching all at once. Andrew is a great guy.

Cassie- *Laughs Hysterically* Cassie is the coolest stinking person I know. She rarely wears clothes that match and she always has a silly off the wall opinion that makes very little sense and makes everone laugh until they turn blue. She is not the most intelligent person I know, but I respect her more than I respect most of the people in my life because she challenges herself with classes that she barely scrapes mid-eighty's in and works her ass of to get them and then she LEARNS. Amazing, absolutely amazing. She also is my partner in crime, *muahahahaha*. Yeah.

Donovan- Ayeyiyi, where do I start. Donovan is no less than a genius, no more than a person. He is kind, chivalrous and is very aware of his actions. He is quiet and he reads all the time. He studies physics and chemistry in his spare time. His intelligence amazes me and truly is the biggest reason I am so helplessly attracted to him. I glorify him as I ask people not to glorify me and I can't help it because he is so breathtaking when he speaks. He is the only boy that I am attracted to and I think he's gay, or the unthinkable, he just doesn't like me!!!!!!!!!! He is also my prom date, though we're going as friends.

Jennifer- Jenn is a girl who trys amazingly hard in class but is just naturally ditzy. She's very fun to hang out with and is a very talented dancer.

Sarah- I played little dribblers basketball and all of the middle school sports with this girl. She "converted" from the popular crowd earlier this year and now hangs out at the dork lunch table with the rest of us. Her mom is also my AP BIO teacher. She's very sweet.

Tiffany- Tiffany is my friend from band. She and I talk guys and girls, guys for her and well, mostly girls for me. She is nice but at times very judgmental. She's also best friends with Josh and they are going to prom together.

Chris- Chris moved from Grandbury to Joshua in the middle of this semester and he also attends my church at times. He bought my big brothers car and I took him three or four times to the DMV trying to help him get his license. He has a very vibrant energy to him, though at times he is hard to swallow. He's a good guy and he helps me work on patience.

Lauren- This girl is pure at heart though much of what she does, she does for attention. She's had a hard life and has a hard time fitting in, though luckily she found our lunch table and the acceptance that comes with it. I mean honestly, look at the bunch we have sitting there. We are a tolerant and loving group of people, though we do it in different ways.

Ashley- Another sweet girl, though her viewpoints are very limited to the stereotypical Joshua ideals. She does have a huge heart though.

People from Joshua who left me *cries*

Marlina- My original partner in crime *tears* I miss her so much. She, Melissa, Cassie and I could paint the town red if those good little Christian girls would relax for a few minutes lol. She is amazing, another person who I respect with my whole being. She is working her way through a private highschool, paying for her own classes, car, gas and insurance. She has amazing beliefs that astound me just because the way she explains them. She is so classy and crazy and lovable. I miss her.

Amanda MANDA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay for Amanda!!!!!!!! My valedictorian and probably one of the best friends I've ever had. She accepts me for me and loves my worries about me and the Christian world. She is amazingly funny and smart, kind and generous, understanding and amazingly awesome. We name cars together, and trust me, you can't get much cooler than that. She has headed of to college and to British boys, well, boy, in Lubbock. She and I ran cross country together and played soccer too. I met her while she was dating my big brother and we sparked a wonderful friendship while swordfighting with drumsticks. Yes, she is awesome. ALTO CINCO, BAJA CINCO, pause, pause, DOS CINCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Misty- I haven't talked to Misty since last summer. She took me to prom last year just because she loves me. She was fun and I miss her. Another college girl off to the real world.....

People who aren't from my school and I didn't meet at church

Erin- Lol girl, you get your own category. That should make you feel special *winks*. Erin is an old friend of mine, we played soccer together forever ago. She also has been/is a love interest of mine for quite some time. To be honest, she is the best kisser that I have ever been so fortunate to kiss. She is passionate and quiet and for some reason doesn't voice her opinion much. That drives me nuts and not in a good way. I feel like an ass because of what happened with the Donovan stuff, but honestly I made the right decision, I can't feel that way about him and date someone at the same time. She is really amazing and I hope some day I'll be able to get my head out of my bum and realize it.

Ft. Worth Chapter Bums

Shands- Shandsamapoo is a soul mate of mine. He and I are connected in the most fun way. People think we're related and its very funny. He makes me laugh about my own faults, helps me realize them so I can improve upon myself. He is very deep, very thoughtful, very connected to the energy around him. At times I find myself jealous of his connectedness. He, along with Josh, are the only people I really ever feel jealousy for. He is amazing and I love him with all my heart.

Megan- Another very kind, very nice person. Megan and I dated for about two months and alot days during those two months were the happiest I ever had. She was my first serious girlfriend after Analise and because of that she means a lot to me. She is very sensual and very attractive. Megan is another girl that I probably didn't deserve because I can't keep my head on straight. She and I ended on good terms and I would like to say for the right reasons. She and Erin are very alike in the fact that both of them never really opened up to me. I always felt like I was the one doing all the talking and I am to pshycologically driven to be able to handle that. Both great girls.

Rally Buddies

Analise- Wow, there is so much to write. Analise was my first girl I ever dated and the first, and for the moment, only, person I have ever loved. She has been one of my best friends since my first Bi-Regi and she and I used to be connected in a really amazing way. Lately we've been drifting apart but we're working on it. She and I tend to disagree about small little stuff, which of course is very silly. I love her alot and I miss her prescence in my life. Oh, and apparently, after a long discussion with Bruce, I am not completely over her. I guess it was obvious to everyone but me. I'll get over her eventually, I hope. By the way babe, thank you for the card, it was kind of strange.

Celeen- Celeenie Beenie is one of my favorite people in the entire wide world. She is amazingly intelligent and gifted musically in her little pinkie five times more than my whole body is. I love her continous analysis of the world around her and her uplifting light hearted smile. She is a great person and it makes me really sad sometimes that I don't know her as well as I would like to. Oh, and though it seems far fetched, I really want to room with her in college. It would be the most fun thing in the entire world.

Vanessa- YAY!!!!!!!! Vanessa is going to TCU next year and that makes me very, very happy. I got really close to her last rally and during the time I spent with her and Shandsamapoo. She is a very wise person for someone her age, a young 16, and she shows it, though I think that she's not as secure as everyone believes. Somewhere inside me I think that she feels unsecure about something, though I'm not sure what. Oh well, I love her to death, even when she keeps little silly secrets from me. She helped me so much this weekend in so many ways and she truly has been a blessing in my life.

Saska- I miss this girl so much. I am closer to her than any one else in my life. She listens to me, she hugs me, she lets me say silly stuff and get away with it and she talks back to me, intelligently with her own opinions. Plus, she smells really good. This wonderful girl sends me letters and cards in the real mail when I'm feeling blue and lonely. She and I connect wonderfully and I've spent much of today thinking of her beautiful face and missing her immensly. Its hard to be so seperate from a best friend. Oh, and just by the way, I did mean what I said Saturday night, I'm looking forward to it and it makes me sad that you and I can't have that chance together now girl. Good bless.

Matt- Another beautiful soul I've met through YOU, Matt is an amazing musician and a touching person. He was my family group co-leader at service, which he and Saska planned, it was kick ass by the way, and it was awesome to see his spirtuality in work while I got to know him. He, along with Saska and Vanessa, helped me immensly this weekend. I don't think that I could have come home from service rally with a positive out look on life without their constant support, hugs and molestations. I think I spelled that wrong. Anyways, Matt kicks booty at music and at sprituality and I love spending time with him.

Jenniffer- Jenn is also from the Houston chapter, along with Saska and Matt. She is a very complex girl who I've known for a long time, though she is really an amazing person. First of all, even though she doesn't realize it, she is very, very strong. Second of all, even though she is unsure of her self, she is wonderful to hang out with and be around and of course don't forget her breath taking voice. I'm so lucky to be loved by people who love music, it just makes the world better.

Donna- She radiates beauty and spirit form every pore of her body. This girl is so amazing. She was my first family group leader and for the past few years she's been my mentor and my equal, even though that took me two years to figure out. She is also regi at the moment and I'm hoping that I'll be her predecesor in order to carry on the legacy that she's started. Ok, so there's not a legacy but it would still be freakin' awesome for her to pass down all that fun stuff to me. I love Donna!!!!!

Daniel- Daniel was my other first family group leader along with the aforementioned Donna. These two were great friends and I had an amazing first rally. Daniel is not the most stable boy in the world but I love him so much. He's been going through hard times lately and I'm glad that I've been there to help him through. I love him a lot as well.

Ricky- I haven't talked to Ricky in forever, though I'm iming him right now. I've helped him through some hard times and he has helped me through the same. He is a nice guy to me but sometimes the way he treats the people that I love makes me want to slap him.

Amber- I haven't seen this girl since conference in August. Amber was the first person I ever really taught to play the drums and she's looked up to me since. I love her so much but I never get a chance to talk to her. I miss you girl.

Danielle- So, about Danielle, this girl is amazing. She intrigues me like no one ever else has before. She has a very nonchalant style about her but she is very deep and is very open about her thoughts. I love listening to her and talking to her and rhyming with her. I think I'm developing a little crush, but those of you who know her, please don't tell her. I don't want to start anything crazy and it is, after all, only a crush.

TADA!!!!!!!!!!! Thats the end, if I've forgotten you, I'm sorry, I listed almost thirty people and its hard to remember everyone who has touched my life in a wonderful way. Good bless. I'm out.