Wonderful

Its nothing that you did wrong or that you did right. It wasn't your blogger and no, it wasn't Megan. You're completely right; I should have stuck with the plan that I had originally, it would have been much easier on both of us. I didn't use you. I swear that. I wouldn't do that to you, or to anyone else for that matter. In all honesty, I had to do this because I have to many feelings for to many people. Its not fair for me to go to school and feel this passionate about Donovan and then to come home and talk to you and feel this passionate about you. You deserve better than that and so does he. I asked you out because it felt right, I asked you out because I had given up on everyone else. Apparently they hadn't given up on me and now I can't restrain my own emotion. I'm not supposed to and I know you wouldn't want me to do so. Yes there are things that Donovan has that you don't, but you have just as many things that he doesn't have. Its not fair to compare the two of you. I wasn't making up little white lies to make you feel better. I would date you again, I want to, its just that I can't have these conflicting feelings and be true to you at the same time. I'm sorry that I've hurt you.

I told a friend of mine that I was worried about him because he was drinking so much. He told me he was worried because of all of the relationships I've been through in the last six months. I'm worried too....

Friday night, when I said you were beautiful I meant it. When I laid my head on your shoulder and sighed, I was truly happy. When I said the night was amazing it was. When I say that you are wonderful, you are nothing but that, wonderful.

You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to, though I'm sure I'll miss your voice. I'm sorry that I've made an already amazingly hard week harder. For some reason I tend to do that for people.

Please forgive me.