Oops...

I've forgotten something else that I wish to write about.

About Erin......

I love the way she calls me Rebecca, instead of Becca, no one else does that and I don't really know why. I like the way she laughs and giggles at everything, and I do mean everything I say. I like her hair, even though its short, and I like her nose *teehee*. She has a very cute nose. I like the fact that she calls me cute, that she likes detail, that she gets flustered and I know it. I like how we settled straight into a normal relationship without the drama or the loss of that "initial feeling." I like her innocence. We love stars, I like that too. Lol, I can't believe she loves Hanson, but I like that too. I love the irony surrounding the relationship and the way she likes to listen to me talk, even when my words don't make sense at all. She's a bi-sexual drama queen and she likes me *grins*.

Lol.

*Sighs* All of those things are true, but I still feel guilty about Megan. Maybe not guilty, but concerned. I know she reads this, as does Erin *waves at both*, and I'm afraid of hurting her feelings or having her feel like I used her. I didn't. I enjoyed my time with her and there were/are still many wonderful things about her. She is a great girl, things just weren't working out. Maybe stuff will work out someday, but until then, I am deeply honored to simply be her friend.

Things I'll Never Say
Avril Lavigne

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it--yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know your worth it

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it--yeah

I guess i'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say