Interestante!!!

Yeah, thats supposed to be in spanish, but I spelled it wrong. Oops.

I broke up with Megan this morning, well, it was around one in the morning. We were at a leadership lockin for the church and Shands, the only other leader to attend besides Megan and I, had just gone to bed. She and I talked about it for a long time and then went to bed. Things are ok.

The drumline won the state championship. I was scared shitless. I'm glad we won.

Megan asked me alot of questions about Analise this morning and last night. I don't know why, but I think that she believes that my feelings towards Analise have something to do with it. They really don't, or even if they do, it is a very minute amount. Things just weren't working.

I realized after the last two days with Megan and Shands and their constant but loving teasing, that I am indecisive, to outspoken, to opinionated, to oriented on "winning" instead of listening, that I lead to much and follow to little, and that sometimes I am amazingly big headed. Thats a lot of lesson to stomach in such short a time. I'll work on those things.

It was weird driving around with Megan because we kept listening to cds that I had listened to when Analise had first broken up with me. I was singing along and I realized that I was on the other side of the song. I was the one who was leaving. It was a very different experience.

Am I me?

I don't know.

Long Day
Matchbox 20

it's sitting by the overcoat,
the second shelf, the note she wrote
that I can't bring myself to throw away
and also
reach she said for no one else but you,
cuz you won't turn away
when someone else is gone

I'm sorry 'bout the attitude
I need to give when I'm with you
but no one else would take this shit from me
and I'm so
terrified of no one else but me
I'm here all the time
I won't go away
it's me, yeah I can't get myself to go away
it's me, and I can't get myself to go away
oh God I shouldn't feel this way

reach down your hand in your pocket
pull out some hope for me
it's been a long day, always ain't that right
and no Lord your hand won't stop it
just keep you trembling
it's been a long day, always ain't that right

well I'm surprised that you'd believe
in any thing that comes from me
I didn't hear from you or from someone else
and you're so
set in life man, a pisser they're waiting
too damn bad you get so far so fast
so what, so long

reach down your hand in your pocket
pull out some hope for me
it's been a long day, always ain't that right
and no Lord your hand won't stop it
just keep you trembling
it's been a long day, always ain't that right

it's me, yeah and I can't get myself to go away
it's me, yeah and I can't get myself to go away
oh God I shouldn't feel this way

reach down your hand in your pocket
pull out some hope for me
it's been a long day, always ain't that right
and no Lord your hand won't stop it
just keep you trembling
it's been a long day, always ain't that right