*Ayeyiyi*

Gosh, its be a long time since I've wrote anything of substance. I'll hopefully correct that in a few minutes. First, I'm getting ice cream, which is way better than jello though muffins beat both of those. Word.

Mission accomplished........

*mmmmmmmhmmmmmmm*

Yeah, so, anyways, or as a dear friend of mine says- So, what else?

Grhhhhh. I got in a huge fight with my mom today for the stupidest thing in the world; she won't let me cut my hair. How amazingly dumb is that? She lets my brothers cut their hair once a month and pays for the damn things as well. For some random reason today she decided that I couldn't cut MY hair until after MY senior pictures, MY senior pictures. Maybe I don't want my hair long, maybe I want a buzz cut, which I don't, but even if I do, who the hell is she to tell me what I can and cannot do with my own body, with my own hair? God, she pisses me off. I'm grounded from my car for 5 days because I decided that it was unfair for her not to let me get my hair cut. What a bitch.

Anyways, besides me really really disliking my parents, I had a wonderful night last night.

Around 6:00 I went to Sarah's house and hung out with her while I waited for my former cross country coach to come. I love this lady, I see so many wonderful, honorable characteristics in her that I want to have for my self someday. She is really awesome, in the sense of awe, not as in cool, if that makes sense to anyone but me.

After I visited with Coach for a few minutes, I went and picked Erin up and she and I went and got icecream at some coffee place. They had real Italian ice cream and even served it the same way they do. I love Italy and even more Italian ice cream. I digress.... She and I then went to sit next to the river that runs through Glen Rose. I thought it was very interesting that she and I went to the same place that we did last summer, when I told her that things weren't going to work out, very ironic. Anyways, Erin and I talked about stars, one of my personal favorite subjects, and we looked for the big dipper and the north star, neither of which we found. Megan called while we were sitting out there. It made me slightly uncomfortable and I felt guilty, though I have nothing to feel guilty about. I never cheated on her or did her wrong, or at least thats how I percieve it, hopefully she feels the same. Yeah, I had a great time with Erin and hopefully I'll see her soon, though probably not in the next five days *grumble grumble*

I'm a real bitch some times. I need to work on that.

Two songs for you tonight, both from Offsprings' Americana cd. Enjoy.

Have You Ever
Offspring

Falling, I'm falling

Have you ever walked through a room
But it was more like the room passed around you
Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through

Have you ever been at someplace
Recognizing everybody's face
Until you realized that there was no one there you knew
Well I know

Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, I'm so outshined and out of time
Have you ever

Falling, I'm falling

Have you ever buried your face in your hands
Cause no one around you understands
Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be

Have you ever felt like there was more
Like someone else was keeping score
And what could make you whole was simply out of reach
Well I know

Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever

Falling, I'm falling

Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, my darkest friend is me again
Have you ever
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to make the world be a better place

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
I'd like to think the world


The Kids Aren't Alright
Offspring

When we were young the future was so bright
The old neighborhood was so alive
And every kid on the whole damn street
Was gonna make it big and not be beat

Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives

Chances thrown, Nothing's free
Longing for, Used to be
Still it's hard, Hard to see
Fragile lives, Shattered dreams

Jamie had a chance, well she really did
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job
He just plays guitar and smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide
Brandon OD'd and died
What the hell is going on
The cruelest dream, reality

Chances thrown, Nothing's free
Longing for, Used to be
Still it's hard, Hard to see
Fragile lives, Shattered dreams

Chances thrown, Nothing's free
Longing for, Used to be
Still it's hard, Hard to see
Fragile lives, Shattered dreams