Sometimes I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror....

dabopgk: can we talk about something?
erinlJONES: like what?
dabopgk: about us i guess
erinlJONES: ok
dabopgk: today at lunch donovan sat next to me and i realized how strongly i felt for him. my problem is that i feel so strongly for both of you and i don't feel like its fair to you for me to feel this way about him. i feel as though i'm lusting after him while i'm stringing you along
dabopgk: i just am attracted to the both of you so much that i don't feel right being torn between you two this way
erinlJONES: ok
erinlJONES: if you want him, then go for it
dabopgk: its not that
erinlJONES: then what is it?
dabopgk: babe, i like you so much, you are wonderful and i really mean it when i say it, but i feel like i'm going to hurt you if this goes on any longer
dabopgk: i can't flirt with him and date you, i can't have both without hurting two wonderful people so i don't want either
erinlJONES: just tell me what you want and thats what it will be
dabopgk: can we go back to dating, just stop being "together" so i can get this sorted out?
dabopgk: i'm sorry babe, i'm such an ass
erinlJONES: sure, whatever you want
dabopgk: i still care about you and like you and enourmous amout
erinlJONES: no, what you want is what you want so don't worry about it
dabopgk: amount
erinlJONES: you see I don't know what it is, I guess I just have this sense, cause for some reason I expected something like this to happen today
erinlJONES: or atleast since last night I've felt that way
dabopgk: are you ok?
erinlJONES: yeah
dabopgk: honestly, please babe, tell me if i can do something to make this better? are you really ok?
erinlJONES: you can't do anything about anything else cause you have to follow what you feel, and yeah I am ok
dabopgk: *smiles weakly*
dabopgk: i really am sorry
dabopgk: and i don't want this to be completely over
dabopgk: i just need some time