Something....

It used to mean something...

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day,
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month on May.

I guess you say,
What can make me feel this way.
My girl,
My girl,
Talking about my girl.

I've got so much honey,
The bees envy me,
I've got a sweeter song,
Than the birds in the trees.

Well, I guess you say,
What can make me feel this way.
My girl,
Talking about my girl.

Hey, hey, hey,
Hey, hey, hey,
Ohh yeah.

I don't need no money,
Fortune or fame,
I've got all the riches baby,
One man can claim.

Well, I guess you say,
What can make me feel this way.
My girl,
Talking about my girl.

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day,
With my girl,
I even got the month of may,
My girl,
Talking about my girl,
Talking about,
Talking about,
My girl,
My girl.

Analise sang that to me at bi-regi, during fuzzies. It made me so happy that I cried. She started sing it again tonight. Damn.

Girls drive me fucking nuts. So many of them like me or love me or want me or need me and god only knows that I wish I could help them. God only knows that I wish I could be superman and fly out and sweep them off their feet and make them feel better. God, aka Me, knows that I can't.

Why can't I make them happy? I guess its their shit to deal with and not mine, but I want to help, they are my friends and I care dearly about them.

Why can't I just be done with Analise? Not friendshipwise but emotionally. My heart jumped when she started singing My Girl. I guess she just didn't realize that the song would mean anything to me. It meant a lot and I guess it still does.

What happens when Megan and I break up? *SIDE NOTE- I don't want that to happen, but what happens when it does? Do people at church get pissed off at me? Does Sasha hate me and want to beat me up for hurting her best friend? Does everything go to pot and I lose Megan's friendship?

Fuck it all.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just sound so happy. I'm not that bad off right now, its just these girls are making me confused and upset. I'm sorry but Becca can't randomly turn her *super-duper-make-everyone-like-becca-thingie* off. I'm just being me. Am I not supposed to be nice? To be kind? To call when they're hurting and sad? Am I not supposed to cheer them up? Damn, am I not allowed to be me???

An anthem for Analise and an anthem for any girl who has ever loved and just can't get her ass over it.

Back To You
John Mayer

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
this way

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be