*YIKES*

Super super busy that last few weeks people, but I guess I'll get to that. Oh, and by the way, I thought I had published the prom entry below this one a long time ago, but I guess I didn't *oops*.

Things to write about- Prom, Donovan, AP tests, band trip, Analise, Celeen.

Oh, and a side note, my mother is the most annoying person alive. Ok, well maybe not, but she really is pushing the limit right now.

Prom was great, exactly like a fairy tale. Everything went exactly how I hoped it would, even down to Donovan telling me he liked me and asking me out. We spent the entire night together, holding hands and dancing. He taught me how to dance, really dance, not something silly like booty dancing. It was wonderful.

So, now I'm going out with Donovan, which is nice. He's amazingly smart and really sweet, but he is also amazingly quiet, which of course is a challenge for outspoken me. I still like him a lot though and everyone says that we're perfect for each other. I'm also having problems with the whole lack of physical touch. I'm the first person he has dated so he is still really nervous about it and I'm just dying to kiss someone. I often find myself attracted to the girls around me and sometimes even thinking of past girlfriends. I like Donovan a lot but I need to move past me touching him and him jumping.

My AP tests have been kicking my butt, however, they are all finished. The Lit test wasn't as hard as I thought it would be and the US History had really easy essays. I'm worried about Bio but there isn't anything I can do about it now. *Sighs* Oh well.............

The real story behind the band trip is actually getting there to be honest, the rest isn't all that exciting. The directors scheduled the trip during the AP US History test so I couldn't come until after I took the test. So I took the test and then my mom drove me to Dallas-Love Field and I flew down to Houston where the beautiful Saska picked me up. At that point I was supposed to meet up with my directors and the rest of the band at the huge mall in Houston, also called the Galleria, and they weren't there. Sooooooooooooo, Saska and I hung out there for a few hours and then we sat infront of the wrong hotel for another two hours wating for my band. I had a really great time talking to her, it was honestly best part of the trip.

I feel very frusterated with Analise at the moment. It seems that she doesn't want to be close to me anymore. Yes, she has been writing me e-mails or asking me to call her, but everytime we talk its about surface area stuff like testing or homework. She won't tell me anything about her and Daniel or anything deeper than what she did at school today. On the other hand, I'm wondering if it wouldn't be better for me to just seperate myself from her. I'm still trying to deal with the leftovers of our relationship from August and nothing that I've tried so far has helped. Its really kind of strange, I'll be walking around or just standing in the bathroom and I'll say her name. It just pops out of my mouth randomly. Oh well.....

Celeen, thank you for reminding me to write, I realize that I haven't in a while but I've been busy out the butt. I just want to say that I love you and I want you to start writing again. Just put the whole situation behind you and go back to those insightful, spiritual, inspiring analysis' of life. I really do miss them. Don't live in the past, live for the now and what you're experincing. You, much like Saska, need to serve yourself.

Calling You
Blue October

Something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I said a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
Never take that away

Well expect me to be calling you to see
If you're ok when I'm not around
Asking if you love me,
I love the way you make it sound

Calling you to see
Do i try to hard to make you smile,
To make us smile

Well i will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought the world had lost its sway
Then I fell in love with you and you took that away
You take away the old, show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when i stand next to you

so while i'm on this phone,
a hundred miles from home,
i'll take the words you gave
and send them back to you

Well expect me to be calling you to see
If you're ok when I'm not around
Asking if you love me,
I love the way you make it sound

Calling you to see
Do i try to hard to make you smile,
To make us smile

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me