I don't know what I want to write about.....

Blah blah blah blah blah blah. Thank you *bows and exits the stage*

So I'm thinking about quiting band all together next year. It would leave me with enough time to get a job and then I wouldn't feel guilty about Zack (older sibling syndrome) or about not being on winter line, which I most definatly cannot do next year. *Sighs* Oh well, I will decide after bi-regi.

I'm really excited about bi-regi now that I think about it. I wrote down the format for my speech on the plane ride to Houston and it was just so amazingly inspiring for me. I've found a way to link science, logic, common sense, emotion and spirituality. I think I just might get regi.......

I have this little book where I write down ideas and thoughts and I have other people write in it too. In fact, thats where I wrote my regi speech.... Anyways, my friend Sarah from school was looking at it today and I was explaining my ideas and things about the people who have written to me in it. It really makes me miss my YOU buddies, but it also makes me happy because I was reminded of the great amount of people in YOU that love me and support me. *Does a dance*

I'm needing this relationship with Donovan to get physical pretty soon. I'm dying from lack of touch and I have started to day dream about various people.... namely Erin, Megan and Saska. Whoaaa boy. Or girl. None of that. I really do like Donovan but I need a chance alone with him. Soon.

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha, I'm about to say something that will either make you blush or make you laugh your ass off.

SEX.

I love how everyone gets so sensitive around that word. Sex, sex, sex, orgasm, sex. Or, as my mother once aptly put it- penispenisboobyfart!!!!!!!!

If you really want to know, don't ask. In fact, even those of you who don't want to know, you don't ask either.

I feel rather silly right now. I guess thats what the mention of SEX does to me. Lol, or not.

Dude, I should just delete all of that, shouldn't I? Oh well....

Hmmmmm.... I wonder what happened to Danielle. I haven't talked to her in a couple weeks and talking to her always makes me happy. *Blushes* I still have a slight crush on her, but she's super awesome so its understandable.

Yikes, it sounds like I'm all up on all of these girls while I'm dating Donovan. Honestly, I'm not. My main problem is, well, what the hell do you do with a boy??? I know anatomically how sex would work, but how do you kiss a boy or touch a boy. I mean, I've got it down pretty well with girls- touch them how I want to be touched- but boys are different. Duh..... obviously Rebecca!!! But, seriously, what should I do? I have no idea, though the first plan is to teach Donovan how to kiss, since he has never done that before *teehee* Its a little bit exciting.

Meh, thats enough of that. I'm exhuasted and I haven't been getting much sleep. In fact, I should go to bed right now. I think I will *waves tata*

P.S. This is how I felt on prom night.....

On the Verge
Collin Raye

Well they shouldn't have played that good
I got carried away and let the music
Go to my head

Well she shouldn't have worn that dress
The way it curled around when she was spinning
Just killed me dead

My heart began to tell my body and my soul
That it had gotten in the mood to lose control

Oh no, when did neon light turn into moonglow
When did that jukebox turn to a rainbow
I'm about to give into this urge

One more slow dance
With her arms around me
One more long glance
And nothing will slow me down
I got no chance,
If I'm not in love I'm on the verge

All I wanted to be was cool
It ain't my style to overheat,
Much less burn
But as we floated across the floor
All at once I flashed right past the point,
Of no return

And when we said goodnight the sun was on the rise
And any stars that hadn't set had fallen in my eyes

Oh no, when did neon light turn into moonglow
When did that jukebox turn to a rainbow
I'm about to give into this urge

One more slow dance
With her arms around me
One more long glance
And nothing will slow me down
I got no chance,
If I'm not in love I'm on the verge