Do things ever not make sense? Shouldn't they though, really? Why is it so hard to have something fully explained, fully understood by all? It doesn't matter that its thermodynamics and evolution or family problems or anything else. Why do we shy around subjects when it would be so much better to have them out, forthright? Did I spell that right? Does it matter?

I don't know, feeling kind of down. I'm tired; trying to get ready for everything. Hard to imagine I'll be in New York in a few days. Its hard to think that I could possibly not see K.C. for a long time........ Three weeks to be exact. She said not to worry about it but I want to see her. I love being with her, being around her, touching her, talking to her. I love her family. It is so nice to walk into the house and have her little bro tackle me and her mom smile and laugh at my jokes as we spend hours talking. Her family loves me almost as much as she loves me and it is the greatest feeling in the world. I love everything about her. And I mean everything, including the multiple dog issues we've been talking about lol.

Feeling better now..... strange how she can do that to me.......

I'm debating running for International Officer. I don't know. I need to sit down and talk to Bruce for a long time.

I looked it up today. There are officially no Unity churches within an hour and a half of Annandale-on-Hudson, which is where Bard is if you didn't know that. It almost makes me want to cry.......... I felt a little bit sick when I found it out this morning....

I'm honestly a little worried about the whole meeting a million new people. I'm going to be rooming with a complete stranger, in classes with people from places I've never even thought of going, going to church at a new place with new people and possibly going to big church, which I have done rarely and enjoyed just as rarely. That is, if I can find a church......... I don't know. I'm excited, but a little nervous. I think I'll feel better about this after this weekend.