Rally

First of all, I don't need to be doing this, I need to be doing one of the two papers that are due tomorrow in my two AP classes that I have on Monday. Second of all....... shit, I don't know, I'm just not doing the papers.

Getting to rally was a trauma in itself. I was supposed to pick my little bro up from school early and when I arrived there, lo-an-behold, he isn't there. Apparently my mom checked him out of school. So I race up to the church, thinking that she has forgotten that all of his stuff is in my car. He's not there. I drive home, pick him up and attempt to drive him to rally. It took two and a half hours when it should have been a 45 minute drive. I drive home. That took 2 hours. I was almost late for my soccer game, but in the end I made it.

I left early Saturday morning and arrived at rally. It was great to be there among those smiling faces that I know so well. Throughout the day I realized how much I impact those around me. So many people told me that I inspire them, that I hae made a difference in their life. People that didn't know my name and people that I didn't know their name. I, though not involved in the rally persay, was an intricate part of the entire process. I was up on stage, I was leading people to different activities with my drumming, I was saying what I felt and what I thought and what things meant. People actually listened. It was amazing.

Spirit sharing was awesome. I filled my pockets with coins, put shoes on my feet, and used my hands to make beautiful music. They liked it. I loved it.

During fuzzies I didn't move, I didn't have too. People just kept coming and coming, people that I didn't know on this realm, but I knew their eyes, their souls.

Rally, though it was wonderful, has made me a little sad. I don't know why. Process time......

Saska, Analise, Donna..... Megan.....

Thoughts......

Wonderful
Everclear

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now