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Gosh, was I crabby earlier today. The lack of sleep does that to me. I apologize to any I may have felt poopy with me.

I feel a tad bit like an ass. I don't know why I said those things about Megan and I, though perhaps on some level I feel them to be true. It seems like she is always talking of the boy she first dated and I'm always talking about Analise. It feels like we both have some leftover baggage. Maybe its me.

I hope that I have not disillusioned any of you about the wonderfulness of Megan. I don't know if I have yet to describe her or not, but I shall this very moment. When she stands against me my chin touches the top of her beautiful blonde hair. Her deep blue-green eyes sparkle and shine every moment she smiles with her full lips. She loves to laugh, and does it often, particularly when I'm around her. She is very intelligent and amazingly complex. Still, after two full weeks under Becca scrutinty, I have yet to understand how she works, which for me is very intriguing and, yes, a bit of a turn on. She has this wonderful way of being absolutely irresistible without realizing or even trying. When I'm around her the only thing I want to do is hold her in my arms and look into her eyes. I am astounded, twitterbaited, head over heels, yes any other cheesy phrase that you would like to attach to the situation. She has me wrapped around her finger and she knows it. The best thing is that she doesn't use it. She likes the way I talk about random things for minutes at a time and she doesn't mind when I sing silly songs about nothing. No, it's not that she doesn't mind, its that she likes it that gets me. She accepts me for me and I am so thankful for that. She is truly divine.

Hey Beautiful, I know I just gave you this address and told you I have this blog. I also know I said some silly stuff in the post before this. I know the paragraph above this could be taken as something else than it is. I want you to know that its not, that everything it says, and everything I have said or written, is amazingly sincere, even the words in the post below this. I don't know where we stand, and thats ok, though I am a bit confused. I wouldn't mind falling in love with you, I think that it would be quite grand. However, I don't want that kind of relationship that we talked about earlier- desperate love. It just doesn't work for me. Thank you so much for the presence in my life, you have already made a profound difference. Thank you.

Hey Leonardo
Blessed Union of Souls

She don't care about my car
She don't care about my money
And that's real good cause I don't got alot to spend
But if I did it wouldn't mean nothin'
She likes me for me
Not because I look like Tyson Beckford
With the charm of Robert Redford
Oozing out my ears
But what she sees
Are my faults and indecisions
My insecure conditions
And the tears upon the pillow that I shed

She don't care about my big screen
Or my collection of DVD's
Things like that just never mattered much to her
Plus she don't watch too much TV

And she don't care that I can fly her
To places she ain't never been
But if she really wants to go I think deep down she knows that
All she has to say is when

She likes me for me
Not because I hang with Leonardo
Or that guy who played in 'Fargo'
I think his name is Steve
She's the one for me
And I just can't live without her
My arms belong around her
And I'm so glad I found her once again
And I'm so glad I found her once again
And I'm so glad I found her once again
Gazing at the ceiling as we entertain our feelings in the dark
The things that we're afraid of are gonna show us what we're made of in the end

She likes me for me
Not because I sing like Pavorotti
Or because I'm such a hottie
I like her for her
Not because she's phat like Cindy Crawford
She has got so much to offer
Why does she waste all her time with me
There must be something there that I don't see

She likes me for me
Not because I'm tough like Dirty Harry
Make her laugh just like Jim Carrey
Unlike the Cable Guy
But what she sees
Is that I can't live without her
My arms belong around her
And I'm so glad I found her once again
Found her once again
I'm so glad I found her once again
Once again