*MEH*

I feel like poop today. I don't know if its a continuation of last night as much as it's just me being exhausted. I feel worn out about everything. Even though I need to do three or four math lessons, the sunroom, the garage, write notes to the girls on the soccer team, and sell some damn fundrasier, the only things I want to do write now is to sleep or go be with Megan. Or both. Its so nice to fall asleep next to someone who really cares about you. I've only had the chance once or twice but it was amazing.

I've had a lot of pessimistic thought today, and I don't think I spelled that right and I don't think I care *teehee*. Thought number one- I don't ever want to get married or have a life partner or something like that. Love, like everything, is subject to change. No one ever loves someone forever. I don't want to be stuck in a relationship because of a commitment that said forever and ever. I want long time relationships, just none of that "I'll love you for all of eternity" crap. It just doesn't work like that. Thought number two- Megan and I, though we truly like each other and are intrested in each other, are just in this relationship to get over our former boyfriend/girlfriend. Meh, that doesn't sound right. We're not in this relationship to get some booty, we're in this relationship with the understanding that we AREN'T going to fall in love. That this is like, not love. No crazy commitments. Thought number three- I can't stand my mother. No matter what I try to talk to her about, she gets angry at me. Seeing Megan, taking my little brother to the movies, cleaning the sunroom, going to church, the dog, every time I talk to her she gets angry at me. *Grrrrrhhhhhhh*

I want to be somewhere else.......

Happy
Sister Hazel

I remember watchin'
All the once upon a times
Remember thinkin'
Who's content and who's for rent
And you said don't you want to be like that man!?
Oh No--No--No!
But then he cracks that smile
And that don't look so bad to me.....

Happy--I'm Happy
But that ain't good enough for you
Happy--I'm Happy.....

I remember thinkin'
How they thought that we should be
Remember feelin'
That might be you but that ain't me
And you said don't you want to be like that man!?
Oh No--No--No!
But then he cracks a smile
And that don't look so bad to me.....

Happy--I'm Happy
But that ain't good enough for you
Happy--I'm Happy.....

Happy--I'm Happy
But that ain't good enough for you
Happy--I'm Happy.....

The suns that rise
A young girls sighs
A baby cries
An old mans eyes

The suns that rise
A young girls sighs
A baby cries
An old mans eyes

I remember watchin'
All the once upon a times
Remember thinkin'
Who's content and who's for rent
And you said don't you want to be like that man!?
Oh No--No--No!
Then he cracks that smile
And that don't look so bad to me.....

Happy--I'm Happy
But that ain't good enough for you
Happy--I'm Happy.....

Happy--I'm Happy
But that ain't good enough for you
Happy--I'm Happy.....