There is no good way

to start this entry. I've written and rewritten my thesis, tried commas, semicolons, dashes and periods. There is no elegant way to say that I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on.

I don't understand what I've done to convey a message of consternation and want. I am doing amazingly well. For the first time in my life, I feel as if I am not living in the past or the future but in the now. I am simply existing, being true.

People keep asking for more of me, they want to KNOW me, apparently everything about me. I am a complete personification of my life, my history, my world. If you want to know me, watch me, look at me, see me. I AM. Thats all there is to it. You don't need to know anything else because there is nothing else. Everything that I am is a compilation of the years of life that I've lived. I am no great martyr, I have not suffered amazing amounts or lived a life rife with pain. I am simply myself. I am.






If you're dying to know more, wait for my memoir, I'm bound to write it someday.........