***God works in mysterious ways.

Its been a long time, a really long time but I just wanted to let you all know that I am alive and well.

Last weekend I spent the night with Vanessa at her dorm. That was after she and Shands came down and rescued me from the evil clutches of work and drudgery. Zack and I went with them and explored the wonders of Joshua; the elementary school playgrounds and the local deranged rich guy's castle. Ok, so the former sounds super cool, and it is, and playgrounds could rock the socks of any drill sergeant *has no idea what I mean by that* but when those are the only two fun things to do in your town, you know its time to, well, sleep.

That wasn't even a sentence, it was just a jumble of words. Sweetness.

Any way, so I ended up spending the night with V and we ended up spending three or four hours just sitting and talking to a large group of TCU kids about sexuality and sex and religion and everything that I love to talk about. It was kicking.

There was this one guy named David who was there. The guy was flaming, but in the best way possible. Very well kept, high pitched voice, feminine gestures; it was obvious that he was gay.

I love using these- ";" - they make me so happy. Even if I use the improperly.

David was amazing. He was exactly who I needed to me. While we were at the playground I had talked about how confused I was about college, about how I didn't think I could go to TCU because I like girls. I needed help and I was answered with a gay boy talking about highschool and college, about the challenges of being true to oneself. It was kicking.

When V and I first walked in to the common room- the place where the awesome conversation took place- I saw David and remembered him. Two months ago, during a drumline competition, the bus stopped at a mall and we had an hour to chill. I spent the majority of the time with Mendy, listening to her spill her heart out about drum major stuff. It made me sick to comfort her, I would have loved to be on the other side, but I was glad to be there and be a true friend. I digress. At one point she and I waited in line for cookies at some place in the food court. Standing in front of us in line was a tall brown haired boy carrying a shopping bag. Two friends approached him and he turned, greeting them in a highpitched voice and hugging them daintly. It was David.

There I was, confused and there David was, not. It was brilliant and perfect and left me with two conclusions-

1) I could live at TCU without huge amazing problems- David did.
2) God is so stinking cool!!!!!!!!!!!

It was a great night.

*enter happy ska dancing music here*

Are You Gonna Be My Girl
JET

Go!!

So 1,2,3, take my hand and come with me
because you look so fine
and i really wanna make you mine.

I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine.

Oh, 4,5,6 c'mon and get your kicks
now you dont need that money
when you look like that, do ya honey.

Big black boots,
long brown hair,
she's so sweet
with her get back stare.

Well I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know we,
ain't got much to say,
before I let you get away, yea!
I said, are you gonna be my girl?

Well, so 1,2,3, take my hand and come with me
because you look so fine
and i really wanna make you mine.

I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine.

Oh, 4,5,6 c'mon and get your kicks
now you dont need that money
with a face like that, do ya.

Big black boots,
long brown hair,
she's so sweet
with her get back stare.

Well I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know we,
ain't got much to say,
before I let you get away, yea!
I said, are you gonna be my girl?

Oh yea. Oh yea. C'mon!
I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know we,
ain't got much to say,
before I let you get away, yea!
Uh, be my girl.
Be my girl.
Are you gonna be my girl?! Yea

Yay for happy ska dancing music *dances*.

So now, a more wonderful boring section of my writing. My annual posting of my birthday and Christmas wants. They are by no means suggestions for anyone who knows me, the lists are simply a way for me figure out what I want, what I dream about, and what I am actually going to be able to get. I mean, come on, there is no way that my parents are going to pay for an airplane or a hightech system that allows me to do anything and everything I want. That would be so kicking.

You know, sometimes you know you've written something amazingly stupid.

Any way, here I go.

Happy Birthday/Merry Christmas!!! lists

DVDs
1) Bruce Almighty
2) A.I.
3) The Emperor's Club
4) Monty Python's Holy Grail, etc.....

CDs
1) Love Actually Soundtrack
2) 3 Doors Down- Away From the Sun
3) Switch Foot- The Beautiful Letdown
4) AFI- Sing the Sorrow
5) Barenaked Ladies- Greatest Hits
6) Blue Man Group- The Complex
7) Blue October- History For Sale
8) Tracy Chapman- Telling Stories
9) Eagle Eye Cherry- Present Future
10) Cold Play- Parachutes
11) Counting Crows- August and Everything After
12) Dashboard Confessional- MTV Unplugged
13) Doves- Last Broadcast
14) Ben Folds Five- The Unauthorized Biography Of Reinhold Messner
15) Patty Griffin- Flaming Red
16) Guster- Lost and Gone Forever
17) Ben Harper- Diamonds on the Inside
18) Jewel- Pieces of You
19) Jimmy Eat World- Clarity
20) Matchbox 20- More Than You Think You Are
21) Dave Matthews Band- Crash
22) New Radicals- Maybe You've Been Brainwashed To
23) Nine Days- The Maddening Crowd
24) Pink- Mizzunderstood
25) Radiohead- Ok Computer
26) Semisonic- Feeling Strangley Fine
27) Six Pence None the Richer- Six Pence None the Richer
28) Smile Empty Soul- Smile Empty Soul
29) Jill Sobule- Jill Sobule
30) The Wallflowers- Red Letter Days
31) White Strips- Elephant

Misc.
1) iPod MP3 player for Windows
a) iPod Dock
b) firewire cable
c) FM adapter
d) docking station cable
e) power outlet
f) extension piece
g) iPod Music Store Gift Certificate/Allowance thingie

~~~~DON'T FORGET THAT I'M ALLOWED TO DREAM!!!!!!!~~~~

***Disclaimer- This is going to take a hella long time to read. Take your time, drink lots of fluids and don't wait up to late for me, I'm gone for the night.