Just Checking in.......

Hmmm. I'm a tad bit frustrated. The new speakers that I bought aren't working as well as I would like them to. I turned them off for about an hour and they seem to be working better, which is good. Hopefully they will continue to work this way.

I'm also a little bit frustrated with a friend of mine... My friend Alexis introduced me to a girl last week, kind of randomly, while the QSA was tabling in Kline, our dining commons. Later, Jackie (the girl that I was introduced to), mentioned to another friend of mine that I was cute and that she wouldn't mind going on a date with me. This, obviously, got back to me and I asked Alexis about Jackie and she too had talked to Jackie about me since I had talked to either of them. So, I'm interested. I would like to meet this girl and get to know here. There was supposed to be a birthday party for a girl that both Alexis (and several of my other friends) and Jackie both new. Alexis invited me to come to know Jackie. The party didn't happen last night, but it was supposed to happen tonight. I called Alexis and she hasn't called me back............ I would like to know what's going on.

So, thinking about all of this, I've tried to come to some kind of conclusion about what's going on in my head about this situation. I know that Alexis wasn't feeling well today, so that's possibly why she hasn't gotten back to me-- a completely chill and acceptable reason. However, that still leaves me antsy and frustrated. Why? Upon thinking more about this, I've decided that I am again trying to jump into a relationship. This is hard for me. I'm dying to find someone and make out with them, regardless of anything else. I want to instantaneously find someone that I connect with. I want this now and I don't want to wait. I'm frustrated.

I also realize that letting go of a situation or a supposed situation is extremely hard, at least for me. Once again, this is not a situation in which the terms veni vidi vici can be applied. I need to wait this out, I need to let what will happen, happen. I don't need to inform anyone of my new outlook on life or my individual aspirations. I'm good right now, letting go and letting God.

I'm affirm this and therefore I know it as truth.