Who's Got My Back?

Sometimes it feels like some of the most important people in my life support me the least. Its hard having a position of power, whatever that power may be, whether it is one of authority or one of spirituality. I know that I am doing an excellent job in all leadership positions that I have; I have made it my intention to do so. I don't feel as if many people at school actually care that I'm in charge of the front ensemble. Well, I think they care that they have MY leadership skills, but they don't care that its ME. It could be anyone else and they would be just as happy. I work best when I feel appreciated and I'm having to appreciate myself alot lately. In YOU its a different story. It seems like the majority of the group is happy and glad to have me but that my closest friends don't support me at all. It feels like they are being overcritical just because they know me better and its not constructive critisim, its the kind where they have angry feelings towards me and don't tell me and then I find out through a third source. Its very frusterating to know people that I value to the utmost degree are picking my bones dry. Yay for run on sentences.

Yeah, if I don't write you personally or if I don't write on here, its because I'm busy with life.

I live a lot.

Feel Free.