What would you do with a purple hippopotamus?

I had a really great conversation with Celeen last night. She and I always seem to talk of the spiritual and I love it.

I also talked to Analise for an hour or so last night, but she had to go because her jaw was swelling. She had her wisdom teeth out Monday and she's still feeling the pain. Poor girl. She and I talked about the things that are going down between us and I'm glad to say that I've basically got all of my side worked out and of course she's had her side worked out since August. Honestly, the choice to be over with this is mine and I'm actively seeking it. I'm pretty sure I'll be cool with this by bi-regi.

Some times I wish she wasn't so abrupt.

I was cleaning out my room yesterday and I came across so many memories. I write, alot, and I've found things from freshman year, from my first London trip, from my first conference. It was really amazing to look how I had progressed, in emotion and in penmanship lol.

I'm thinking about calling Erin up. I know she's going to be in Cleburne a lot for the last few weeks and I would like to see her again. I feel like she and I have a lot of things unresolved.

I miss having intimacy with someone. I miss being able to snuggle and to hug. I really wish that I could find someone who enjoyed being around me and didn't mind me touching them. I really wish I could find a girlfriend. Its not that I have to have one or that I feel depleted without one, its just that it would be nice to have someone to talk to and flirt with. I'm not in dire need but its not like I don't want one.

I have been trying to find out the name of this song for years *does a happy dance* I love this song, it kicks.

Whatever
Splender

And you're primative
And you're cynical to me
And I chewed down on the bit
And almost swallowed it

You sit all alone with your color TV
Your hair starts to glisten
In spite of the fleas
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful
Yeah, whatever leaves you satisfied
'Cuz I'm out of time
For now

And you're paraniod
As you look me up and down
And I'm soaked in gasoline
Mud and ice cream

You sit by the the phone
With your tongue hanging out
You cradle the flies in the back of your mouth
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful
Yeah, whatever leaves you satisfied
'Cuz I'm out of time

Damned if you do
F**ked if you don't
Damned if you do
What if you won't?

Damned if you do
F**ked if you don't
Damned if you do
What

You must be aware of what you're
Doing to me
We sunk like a stone on a rock
In the sea

We don't have to stay friends
(Not for very long)
We don't have to stay friends
(Just because you're gone)

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful
Yeah, whatever leaves you satisfied
You get what you want 'cuz you won't let it die

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever leaves you insecure
Yeah, whatever seems to break you down
'Cuz I'm out of time
But I'm feeling fine