SLEEPZZZZZZZZZ...............zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I am a tired, sleepy, almost but not quite crabby girl right now. I have math homework to do *pouts* but I don't have any other homework *celebrates*. It makes me happy.

Austin people are slowly losing their influence on my life. Analise's name hasn't popped up randomly in my head in the past couple days, but I guess thats because I'm busy thinking about the new girl in my life- Keri.

Keri is a very attractive freshman colorguard member in my highschool band. I'm a junior. It works just fine unless I try to have a conversation with her. I think she might be a little intimidated by my *great* mind lol. I'm a thinker and some people seem to find me crazy for it, but, well, I like it.

Anyways, I'm debating what to do with the situation. I'm completely out at my highschool, and Keri hasn't even told her best friend. I want the whole hand holding and flirting and everything but I don't know if I'm willing to compromise Keri's reputation at school for that. Joshua is a MEAN place sometimes, a very mean place. Society here seems to like to pick on the individual. Anyone who sticks out of the group, whether it be by sexuality, religion, intelligence, or out look on life is picked on or pointed at or whispered about around the school. I'm in kind of a bad situation, being bi, nonchristian, the weird kind of smart and having a very hippy view of the world. I digress. I've been where Keri is heading and that girl is to sweet to be placed in that position. However, the way she keeps nudging me along is hard to resist.....

Oh well, whatever will be will be.................

The Middle
Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright)