I'm Off

Wild1from666: so when are you off for college?
dabopgk: 9 days
Wild1from666: wow...I bet many things are running through your head right now
dabopgk: a millioin
Wild1from666: lol new word time
dabopgk: lol, million. see, i'm so distracted by the thoughts that i can't spell!

I'm feeling so emotional today.......... I'm leaving in nine days..... in nine days I'll be flying with my daddy, away from home, my friends to a place where I know no one. My wrists hurt like a mo-fo and I've been amazingly dizzy today, everytime I stand up, regardless of the fact that I've eaten protien filled food all day. My cat keeps laying on my wrists as I try to type and I miss Rose in an unbelievable way. People need my attention, they want it, demand it. I need to fix their problems, listen to their stories, listen to how horrible I've been. I'm sorry, I can't right now. My head is throbbing and I can't be responsible for all of you, and I mean all of you. God damn........ there are to many of you, not enough of me. All of them girls, ha! What does that tell you about me?

I miss Rose. I talked to her on the phone yesterday and it only made me miss her more. Don't get me wrong, I want her to call again, right now in fact, *pauses for ten seconds in hopes that my wishing worked..................* I wish I could kiss her instead of just dreaming about it.

So, I should be ok with that. I am ok with that. I know that Rose and I will get our chance and until then I am content and happy to have her as a spiritual partner. Sarlat will come later.

I feel better now, still exhausted though, which is silly seeing as I got 12 hours of sleep last night, more than I have in weeks. I've wanted to sleep all day. I could go to sleep right now and its 6:30!!! Geez.... crazy body........


I still miss Rose.


Not Enough
Three Doors Down

Seven days underpaid
Gotta give it up
Got no time for this life that
I’m livin’ up
Shackled down, kicked around,
Now slave to the grind
Need some time for myself

I’ll give you anything that you want me to
If you don’t have the time so
I’ll get up with you
If you don’t understand man
You’ve got to believe
There is too much of you but
There is not enough of me
There is not enough of me

Same old song world moves
On while I’m still in bed
Need tomorrow today just to
Get ahead
Jump the gun on the run,
Am I the only one
Who thinks that
I’m fallin’ behind?

I’ll give you anything that
You want me to
But I don’t have the time
So I’ll get up with you
If you don’t understand
Man you’ve got to believe
There is too much of you
But there is not enough of me
There is not enough of me

I’ll give you anything that you want me to
But I don’t have the time so I’ll
Get up with you
If you don’t understand man
You’ve got to believe
There is too much of you there
Is too much of me

I’ll give you anything that you want me to
But I don’t have the time so I’ll
Get up with you
If you don’t understand man
You’ve got to believe
There is too much of you but there
Is not enough of me