*GRRHRRHRHRHRHRHHHHHHHHH*

The little bastard. I almost don't know what to do anymore. Each time I think we're growing closer, each time I think that I can stand the sight of his face, he puts that little smug smile on, screws over one of my friends, lies about who he is and smacks me in the face with his fucking facade.

Damn little bastard.

That stupid fucking boy!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!

He's such a fake, a little liar, a little genius that manipulates everyone else to get his fucking way. And when he can't, he backs down. When he can't, he lets his tail go between his legs like the beaten, pathetic little puppy dog that he is.

No one else sees it. No one else knows. "He's such a good Christian boy. He gets such good grades at school."

Fucking lies.

Damn bastard.

You fucking hypocrite , you bigot. You aren't going any where but down. You aren't doing anyone any good.

Be your self you little fuck. Screw your parents, screw "God", screw society. Stop being such a little fuck and make yourself.

Define yourself.

You have that choice, you have that control of your life. Don't let them live it for you, don't let them tell you who you are, what you should be. Be true to yourself.

You're not saving yourself by pretending. If the God you "believe" in is real, if he sits in heaven waiting to judge us and send us to hell, then he knows and there is nothing you can do about it. Nothing.

And if what you "believe" is true, well, I'll be there.

I'll be there waiting for you.

Phoenix
RCW

A Phoenix in the dust
Rising up again
It’s perpetual rebirth
Wearing itself thin

Its life a continuous process
Of fucking over friends
And upon each existence
He does it, again and again

The bastard of the Father
The Son and the Holy Ghost
Beaten, bruised and left alone
By the few who should love the most

Led astray by the Truth
To lead those about him the same
Using lies, falsity and hate
To play his own sick game

This lying, this forgiveness,
This eternal love based in fear,
Beginning every morning,
Ending each night in tears

Waking to shake the ashes off
To ignore the voice within
Rising with no lesson learned
To begin, again, in sin.